I don't get it....

To start, about a year and a half ago, I moved into a house with both my parents, my sister, her fiance and his two young children and my other sister. Things have been fine for the most part up until recently. Now my sister and her fiance have started acting like assholes basically. Hiding toilet paper, laundry soap, towels in their room. It is ridiculous that they do this. I pay my portion of the bills, I buy food and other necessities, where the hell does she come off doing this?  In all reality I should pay less rent and other bills because I am only one person and they are four.  Yet I found out that they do not even pay their portion of the rent in full. 

I just don't understand how she can be like this.  She was not raised this way.  Me and my other sister are not like this.  I don't buy necessities just for myself and hide them from others.  So what if she is always washing the towels.  I use one towel and a wash rag for usually about a week at a time.  They use many more than that.  Why should I wash and fold the towels?  She stays at home all day doing nothing, hardly even keeps the house clean.  I don't know.  I just don't understand why she acts like that.

I keep quiet but it is hard because it really pisses me off and I want to call her on it.  She also treats our younger sister with malice that is unnecessary.  Just a few more months and we will be moving out.  It is what it is, hopefully she will see the error of her ways.

I don't know

I seem to live in a state of being tired. Sleep seems to elude me nightly. I deal with it. It is not fun being tired all the time but at least once every two weeks my body does decide it has had enough and I fall asleep very early and usually get about nine hours of sleep. Maybe if I were a healthier weight I would not have this sleep issue.

I am working on the weight issue. It is hard going though. So hard to break a lifetime of habits, even though I have done it before. I try to not make excuses about my laziness. I know what needs to be done, I just need a kick in my ass is all. I have goals, I just have no motivation.
There is a female at work that I am interested in. Besides the usual reason for attraction of course, I don't know why I feel attracted to her. Maybe it is the mischievous way she smiles sometimes, as though she knows something funny about everyone and is not telling. I do get a feeling that she may be attracted to me but I could be wrong, I've never been any good at reading signals. Probably best to just ignore it. No good can come to getting involved with someone you work with.

Speaking of work, I am a licensed Fire Alarm Technician in the State of Texas. Hopefully I will get at least a two dollar raise soon. That will help a little toward paying off some of my debt. My boss is cross training me for sprinkler inspection also. Printed out a few hundred pages that I need to study so eventually I can take the test to get my RME. Another license means more money. I was also be NICET Level Two in Inspection and Testing of Water Based Systems. I will also start working on my NICET certifications in Fire Alarm. I have goals also. One day I will be able to support myself. I will be able to pay off my debt.

I have made decisions in my life that have led to this point, but at least I have learned from my mistakes, unlike many people of my generation. I need to buy some more boxes to finish packing the rest of my books and assorted things. I am looking forward to the move in a few months, even though I loathe moving. Nothing worse in the world than having to pack everything up and move to a new house. Oh well, at least things will be a bit quieter and a bit less tense. I think I will also be able to diet correctly and be able to start some food storage. I will continue to live with my parents until they are able to stand on their own once again.